In my life
There’ve been times
When I couldn’t breathe
Truths I just couldn’t see
And the light fell from my eyes
But in time
I grew tired of all these games
Couldn’t take any more pain
So one day I made up my mind.

I am free
No one is holding me down

Angel child,
If you’re feeling all alone
Go inside to find your home
Cause no one can bring you your joy
Maybe try not to think about what is missing
Just become that which you seek.
And life will become beautiful.

You are free
No one is holding you down
You can run if you please
If you fall to your knees
You’ll find a way off the ground
Everyone falls sometimes
Everyone sees the night

The pain was designed to direct us inside
And happiness is something you have to decide.
Gotta know your own mind
Not till then will you find
That you were the one in control all the time.
You were free.

I got your letter today
It came from half a world away
You said, "Baby, you sang to me on the train
All 9 hours through the headphones
As we rode on through the rain

I've been thinking about everything
I've been wondering what I have to bring

And I miss you, baby, more every night
It just feels a little lonely on this train tonight
As I ride across the ancient landscapes
All the ghosts seem to haunt me
And I'm thinking of you"

"So much irony," you said," in such a beautiful place
See, all the eyes are sad, my love
Still searching for some grace
I've been trying to find the love, just a trace
So, I close my eyes, and see your face

And I'm really not sure why
But I think I just might cry

I miss you, baby more every night
And I can't remember why I'm on this train tonight
As we ride on through the rain and wind
I can feel the love you send
Are you thinking of me?"

I put your letter down
I looked up at the stars
Said, baby can your hear this sound?
It's the beating of my heart
And every beat belongs to you

And I miss you, baby, more every night
I'm thinking of you as you ride that train tonight
As you glide across the ancient landscapes
I can hear you whisper to me
"I'm thinking of you."

I got your letter
But now I need you here
So come home soon
I'll be here, waiting for you

 He's got tunnel vision
But I want to fly above ground
I cannot tie these wings up
But I just can't see the way out

(chorus)
Deliver Me from this darkness
Lift the veil from my eyes
Deliver me as this fortress
Crumbles now, lift me high

You're the light in my bedroom
But now I've forgotten the sun
I can't see life without you
But does that make you the one

(Repeat chorus)

Well, I thought that surrender
Was all that I needed to do
So I gave in to love
But Love was a bird and she flew

I can't hear what they're saying
And I can't see where to go
All I know
Is you

Deliver Me from this darkness
Lift the veil from my eyes
Deliver me as this fortress
Crumbles now, lift me high

You
You’re out on the town tonight,
Living it up
Under the twinkling lights.
And I haven’t seen your face
In two hard days.
But I have no room to complain.

‘Cause I let you go.
But I still miss you, babe.
Used to be the one you’d hold,
But I think it’s better this way,
‘Cause I can’t be the one you need.
Oh, but God,
Your scent is still on the sheets.

So much to do, you say,
So little time.
Maybe I never even crossed your mind.
But I guess it’s good,
You’re moving on just fine.
So, I’ll ignore this empty space inside.

‘Cause I let you go.
But I still miss you, babe.
Used to be the one you’d hold,
But I think it’s better this way,
‘Cause I can’t be the one you need.
Oh, but God,
I still feel your hand on my cheek.

I woke up this morning,
Reached out my arm,
But only pillows met my hand.
I close my eyes again and
Pretend that I don’t care
That you’re not there.

‘Cause I let you go.
But I still miss you, babe.
Used to be the one you’d hold,
But I think it’s better this way,
‘Cause I can’t be the one you need.
Oh so why is this heartache tearing at me?
Doesn’t it know
That I let you go?
 

 This song is a message to all the oppressors
Who would silence the voice of the heart
Keep us living scared in the dark


You don’t understand and so you slap my hand
And take away the love that you can
But you don’t give a damn how happy I am
You were happier when I was miserable
But fit your model
Of a nauseating, suffocating, perfect fucking world


But I’m not afraid of you anymore
And I won’t be an emotional whore
Change who I am to get the love I need
No that’s not me
And I won’t bleed at your hand anymore

I never gave you permission
To judge all my decisions
You nailed me to this cross
Now I bear it on my soul

You wanna crucify me
Through this darkened glass
is all that you can see
But with my back against the wall
I won’t take it anymore.
I won’t bleed.


What’s ironic about the situation
Is it’s your fear of your own damnation
That leads you to do to me
What you’re afraid
They’re gonna do to you
But I refuse
To be part of this hell that you choose
It’s safe but it’s sick
And it’s sad and so thick with fear

I never gave you permission
To judge all my decisions
You nailed me to this cross
Now I bear it on my soul

You wanna crucify me
Through this darkened glass
is all that you can see
But with my back against the wall
I won’t take it anymore.
I won’t bleed.

Why do we
create such misery
and hide our hearts away
where no one can see
It doesn’t have to be so lonely
any more


How can you judge what you don’t know?
It’s only your fear that’s running the show
And in your inability to see
You crucify me


You wanna crucify me
Through this darkened glass
is all that you can see
But with my back against the wall
I won’t take it anymore.
I won’t bleed
At your hands
Anymore

You’re gonna come back once you see
How much you love and need me
How wrong you were to leave
And then these voices
Will finally let me be

Why won’t he come
Why won’t he stay
Why can’t I just make it all okay
You are gone
Still, you haunt my night and day
Your ghost just will not go away

Get out of my head
Get out of my life
I see all the ways that you mess with my mind
I’m tired of these games
Not living this way
No more to say
This is goodbye

Turn on the lights
Turn on the sound
This emptiness
Is getting too loud
Feel like running
But I hit the ground
Your sickness
Is taking me down

It’s okay
It’ll be alright
I’m laying you down
Tonight

Get out of my head
Get out of my life
I see all the ways that you mess with my mind
I’m tired of these games
Not living this way
No more to say
This is goodbye

 But you're gonna have to lay it down
All these burdens
The fear, the pain
The ways to keep it out
Stand up where you belong, it's time
The wind is at your back
Feel it lift you, let it go
Feel the walls begin to crack

I know you want to lay it down
The weight of the world
Will sink you till you drown
I know you want to lay it down
You just don't know how.

So follow me, Love
When you cannot see the way
All you need, Love, to know
Is you're going home
Come leave behind these sleepy ways
This endless night, and find the day
Somewhere the sun has not turned black
Pack your dreams into this bag
Leave your fears and
Baby, don't look back

I know you want to lay it down
The weight of the world
Will sink you till you drown
Breathe it in and breathe it out
Trust me now...

 You are haunting my dreams,
the waking and the sleep.
Your ghost it follows me.
Your words echo in my ears,
melting all the fears,
the ice of all these years.

And you said, “You are the ocean
Alive in the night.
With the moonlight upon you
may the sun never rise.”
You said, “I’ll be the boat
To carry it home, this sweet love
And I will not go off course,
Sure as the stars are above.
Paradise is on that shore
And I am drunk on your kiss love
But still thirsty for more.”

I have waited so long
For spring to come along
And claim this song
Summer’s Heat is on your breath
A promise to be kept
Someday yet

And you said, “You are the ocean
Alive in the night.
With the moonlight upon you
may the sun never rise.”
You said, “I’ll be the boat
To carry it home, this sweet love
And I will not go off course,
Sure as the stars are above.
Paradise is on that shore
And I am drunk on your kiss love
But still thirsty for more.”

May I never be sober
May I never wake up
May I stay here forever
And drink from this cup
God willing, Love
You are haunting my dreams
the waking and the sleep
In summer’s heat

 I was on my way today
When the car broke down
Guess I’ll be a little late
Just a few days.
I’ve been hanging in no man’s land,
Got no place to go
And I’m wondering where I stand
With him

So, take me for a ride
Somewhere far away
Where we can forget this life
Darlin’, let’s go have another drink
It’s been a long five months
And I just don’t want to think tonight

I’ve got jagged little pill on play
for the last few days,
where I turn when I’m feeling lost.
I’ve lost my way.
And it’s far too easy for me to go astray.
In this storm my boat is tossed, and I pray

Take me for a ride
Somewhere far away
Where we can forget this life
Darlin’, let’s go have another drink
It’s been a long five months
And I just don’t want to think tonight

Does nothing stay the same anymore?
If it’s not one thing, it’s another for sure.
Will I make it to the other shore?
Will I make it for sure?

So, take me for a ride
Somewhere far away
Where we can forget this life
Darlin’, let’s go have another drink
It’s been a long five months
And I just don’t want to think tonight
Not tonight

 Feel the burn
These winds that churn
A storm brews inside
There’s nowhere to hide
From the truth of the tide

Shadows fall
No protection
Are these walls
There’s nothing to do
But look at the truth
And love yourself through

You’ll lose yourself
In this sea
If you don’t learn
To swim beneath

And it’s alright
If you need to cry
Those beautiful tears
That prove you’re alive
Let go and know
You’re already Home

I feel your pain inside
Your hands tremble in mine
I know you’re afraid
To let go of this place
That’s held you so safe

But here I am tonight
Arms open wide
And I won’t forsake
This beauty that wakes
As every wave breaks

You’ll lose yourself
In this sea
If you don’t learn
To swim beneath

And it’s alright
If you need to cry
Those beautiful tears
That prove you’re alive
Let go and know
You’re already Home

Love never left your side
Just an illusion of the mind
That rendered you blind

And it’s alright
If you need to cry
Those beautiful tears
That prove you’re alive
Let go and know
You’re already Home

There’s nowhere to go. You’re already Home.